The way it should be

My name is Mary Jane and I am a recently divorced mother of two. My divorce came very unexpectedly and I will admit that I have not dealt with it as well as I could have. I was married to a gorgeous man named Michael for 15 years and his departure from my life has left me stunned and unable to cope. I never got a chance to date before, Michael and I were married straight out of high school and now finding myself single at the age of 33 is is not what I had expected.

I have begun dating single men at work but I truly hate it. I guess they simply do not ticklemy fancy. None of them even remotely compare to my ex.Michael has the most gorgeous smile and he had away about him that made me feel safe. When he would hug me I knew everything would be okay. I spent 15 years of my life with this man and now it seems impossible to find anyone that can take his place in my heart.

I miss the touch of his hands, the tickle of his beard on my face in the early morning. I miss being able to hug him and look into his beautiful blue eyes. I miss the feeling of belonging and knowing that I was not alone. That no matter what life was throwing my way, I had a partner that would help see me though it.

The men I meet seem so bland in comparison, sure some are gorgeous and they have their own charm. But they are not Michael, they do not make me feel safe with a hug and a smile. They are not the father of my two children. If I have to go onwithout him who will take care of us?

I am hoping eventually Michael will come to his senses and come back home. I will await his return with open arms, he will always be my husband and my kids dad. I know the time will come when once again I will feel his hands touch my body. I will again feel the tickle of his beard on my face as he wakes up next to me.