The way it should be

I guess you can say I have lived a lonely life, I'm by myself a lot, work is all about just me, no groups, just me so team work is not a word that I would use a lot. I am a writer and its a fast paced world for some, others its more about alone time with your thoughts and that's the category that I would fit into. I am all about being alone with my thoughts and putting pen to paper or typing up my feelings about love, life, sex, loneliness, children whatever is on my mind I do it. I guess there is a reason why I shut myself away from the world, you could call me a soft delicate person, I have a fear of being hurt by people I care about and to be let down and because of that I rarely let people get close to me. Friends and family argue its the wrong way to live life but who cares, its what I chose. Lately though, there is no point denying that I am needing someone to be close to. I am lucky I have such great friends and a wonderful family bu there is one thing lacking and that is love and romance. Other than the teenage romances I had there is nothing else I have experience that could qualify as love.

I read an interesting article about speed dating and it sounded interesting, most people who go tend to choose speed dating as an option to meet people because it really shows who you connect to seen as how you are with each person for such a short time. Then its a matter of keeping in touch with that person or persons and seeing if anything special develops. Its exciting, I informed those closest to me about my desire to try this and they where all for it. The local diner down the road was holding a special speed dating night so I signed up, prepared and went along without a single doubt in my mind. That night I felt braver and more filled with confidence than I ever have before it was as if all my worries and anxiety just blew away like a common piece of dust and I let go. In the end it worked out well for me, there was more than one spark of romance in the air, I love speed dating.